I sessioned with Mistress Paloma many times in the mid-late 80's-

-it was when I guess she first started out--

she was so wonderful, so sweet, and so down to earth.

She was also so beautiful!

I once asked her what her ethnic heritage was--

and she told me that she was "Spanish and Indian"--

I think she meant American Indian/ or Mayan Indian.

I believe she was Mexican/American

I remember her cute Spanish accent.

She told me that her real name was Vicky-

and that she had a vanilla job as a collections agent for a company.

After many sessions with her I had gotten out of the scene for a
few years to focus on my job and I tried some vanilla relationships.

But I would call her every so often-

I had her private phone number.

I was so torn-I needed her but at the same time I was afraid to start up again.

During one of those calls after I had stopped sessioning with her-

a few years had gone by already since I last saw her--

she told me over the phone that she had broken her leg in a car accident--
some jerk threw a brick off of an overpass that smashed her
windshield causing the accident--

and she asked me if she could live with me for a while until she mended -

she said that she wanted me to take care of her.

I balked-

I guess that I was afraid of the intimacy of living with my Mistress.

And to this day- I have regretted saying no to her.

I still dream of how wonderful it would have been to care for her in her time of need--

and even that we could have gotten married-

and that I could have been her slave/husband!

I wish that I could find her / reach out to her today-

But I'm sure that she is happily married/ happily retired-

the last thing she may want is to hear from a former slave- from her previous life.

I truly miss her and I wish her the best.