My fiance has been wonderful in accepting my secret life of fetish and submission. It is a blessing that she has been more than tolerant but taken an active interest. Now she is asking me to top her. I hate to say it but it is a total turn off. Have you ever had to go through the motions to make your lady happy? One of the Dommes I session with told me to look at it as pleasing her. I feel selfish being so disgusted with at the thought.