i've done a little research into the process and steps of dealing with grief but thus far have not found anything really useful that would apply in this particular situation. i will continue to research, though.

As W/we have touched on in personal conversations, i'm trying to get a better grasp on the root feelings (is it disconnect, is it loss, or something else?) in an effort to try and understand how to better deal with it.
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Fear, anxiety, arousal & pain; all are emotions & sensations. Feel them, experience them, surrender to them & learn to accept them.

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