Slv4u,

Yes it's quite the dilemma. All you said is so true for me. And I have chosen as you did/do.

Would really LOVE to hear Domme's input in regard to this situation! Is this something you hear from Your subs often?

i was fortunate to build as very good friendship (not clingy/scary!) with "my" Domme. It was great and She was the best i ever sessioned with. Unfortunately She retired, and post Covid, i'd hope to find someone equal, but i seriously doubt that is possible for a various number of reasons. Sigh. frown