This is an excellent article on xdrop and the clarification between the different drops. I have often wondered if whet you experience is grief. I am still not clear why it takes a day or two to fully hit. I wonder if the steps for dealing with grief (and I don't know what they are) would help you.

i've done a little research into the process and steps of dealing with grief but thus far have not found anything really useful that would apply in this particular situation. i will continue to research, though.

As W/we have touched on in personal conversations, i'm trying to get a better grasp on the root feelings (is it disconnect, is it loss, or something else?) in an effort to try and understand how to better deal with it.