AS,

I am sure you will get lots of responses from those who love corporal as part of play or are just fully spankos, which is why I wanted to respond. Personally, I am not a maso and the pain I like the least is actually corporal... Which is exactly what I get it out of it.

I always want two things out of play, 1) For the Domme to have as much fun playing with me as she can & 2) To truly feel my submissiveness... And that is where corporal comes into play for me. Since I don't like it, enduring it is truly submitting in a way that I don't when we are playing specifically to my own fetishes. Plus, if we are going there then I know we are doing so to satisfy what She likes, or just needs at that moment.

Corporal, therefore, puts me and a very specific headspace that I enjoy even if I hate the actual activity as it is going on. I don't know if this perspective helps you with what you are feeling right now, but I know it is a different perspective then you'll get from those that truly love it.
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Asp