In two cases... very infatuated. But I knew based on my circumstances and the circumstances of both ladies it could never happen.

In both cases I was in deep, deep subspace. In both cases I became a friend, a confidant for their vanilla careers. In both cases I was invited to their homes, shared meals, helped run errands with them both. Again, in both cases I received special privileges and access to them in ways I can’t describe. (With neither lady was I a lover or boyfriend.)

One retired around a decade ago and has a thriving vanilla business. The other is the only Mistress I see, rather sporadically now, and she is basically under-the-radar involved mostly in her vanilla career.

Still... they haunt me. But it was, is, impossible.