A Day of Freedom and of Control and Pain - by slaveboy

i had mixed feelings about an upcoming supervised release – I enjoy being under Mistress Ayn’s control in chastity but desperate for a release.

After two weeks of chastity, the freedom was quite nice – it all starts out nice. BUT, there is always a pain element too. Ordered to wear pink panties was agonizing as they rubbed against Her now unencumbered cock and balls, excruciating stimulation. Plus, i was ordered to take a Cialis. i was so intensely aroused. i followed Mistress Ayn’s orders to watch porn during the day but no touching. The erection was very hard and caused me to shake with desire for relief. i wanted to touch myself so badly but was obedient.

After a very long day, evening arrived and the next order = an orgasm. Ah, but not so fast slaveboy, a RUINED orgasm. Yikes!!! And, slapping Your balls – hard, as ordered – as i came. Double yikes!!!

As ordered, there was photographic evidence on Twitter of the discharge before i licked up every drop.

Despite the freedom, watching porn, and an orgasm (albeit ruined and with painful ball slaps), i felt little pleasure or satisfaction, and it was back in the cage. The ED pill continues to stimulate for days, so the chastity restriction was particularly painful. i craved an orgasm, a real orgasm.

So many questions as i tried to sleep: How long in chastity this time? Will i EVER get a real orgasm in 2019? Is there anything that i would not do if ordered by Mistress Ayn? How could the pleasure of a release be made even more painful and unsatisfying? Will i actually survive being Mistress Ayn’s chaste slave? Why do i have just a huge smile on my face (hint: i have pleased my Mistress, which makes it all worth it)?