You're welcome.



Power exchange and the psychology thereof is a passion of mine. I could talk at length about what might be going on for you, but I'll keep it brief.

If being submissive feels performed, they it's likely you're either not finding the right conditions by which you can naturally relinquish control or you actually aren't really interested in submission.




The conditions by which someone feels submissive (or Dominant) and moves them into sub- or Domspace can be very specific to that person.

Roleplay is something that can come very naturally to some people. For others, it can be a very awkward and uncomfortable -- to the point of being a turn-off.

You mention interaction and acting. It often does involve that, but it doesn't have to. I can be a "kidnapper" and demand silence from you the entire time. You can just slip into the fantasy, have your subjective experience, while I more demonstrably embody my role.

So, actual issues here may be that speaking interferes with how you understand and experience your own process of surrender, and that you may just need to do very particular types of roleplays.

There's also the possibility that what you understand "submission" to be and what it actually is are at odds.