This is a hat tip to AspX. It made me think about my journey as a sub, and I didn't want to hijack the great "Perspectives" thread. I want to share a few things how I evolved in this scene and see if anyone identifies.

I got into this at around 20, in college, with a legendary domina who was 20, 25 years older than me. I was young, horny, maybe attractive but was a lump of clay for her to mold. Before I had my first session I spoke with the Mistress on the phone, explained my role play, she understood and I loved that it would be theatrical. I was used in ways during and after that first session, that I never have known I would have liked: a sub to train rookie Mistresses (did it once with her in my 20s, then later in my 30s); her "bath sub"; being used with a strap on once (didn't like it then, still don't), but a decade later when I returned to the scene it was with her.

She suggested Mistresses that I would be compatible with. I was never forced. Seduced and encouraged to try new kinks? Sure, I evolved. Was lucky to meet some fine Mistresses, wonderful people. They suggested things I might like, I was open some of the activities and tried. In my 40s one Mistress was younger than me by at least 15 years, so I became the experienced partner. I was introduced by another Mistress older than me who owned the dungeon and, maybe it was the age difference, I became a switch before knowing what that meant. By the beginning of scenes I was dominant with the younger Mistress, but at the end, I was once more a sub, groveling at her feet. I became a regular for a couple of years.

A few years after that I grew tired of the commercial dungeon scene, didn't feel safe really, and approached independent Mistresses. I became a full exhibitionist - with Mistresses in her home or secluded public spaces. For my "Amazon Queen" fetish was physically dominated by female bodybuilders who are dominant. And used in a variety of ways indoors and outdoors doing things that would be incomprehensible to the 20 year old I was. We discussed outlines, but no scripts or dialogue, all ad lib.

Today, I'm older, maybe wiser, but who the hell knows? I have been with one traditional Mistress for several years. My one and only, she does own me. Would I do it all again? Not sure, but I'm still doin' it. As my first Mistress said when I called and saw her for the last time in the '90s, "You're still doin' this shit?" We laughed and said sure. And I can tell you now for my one and only I still am a complete sub, slut, beast, bitch... whatever she wants to call me, or whatever she wants me to be.

What's been your evolution as a sub?


Edited by junglebeast (Yesterday at 05:53 PM)