Jungle pet, you have gotten good advice from AspX and the Thomas. It is wonderful that this community is pulling together to support you. i am sorry that you are going through this difficult time, it sounds like resolution may be difficult, but that honest/open conversation is important. please remember SSC (safe, sane, consensual) - if the financial drain is so excessive, you have to make the hard choice to protect yourself. If the Domme does care about you as her sub, she will recognize the right things to do. I understand the emotional drain, but i also think life has highs and lows- we need the lows to appreciate how wonderful the highs are. you will get through this and we are here for you!