Yesterday I had a session with my Mistress so this is fresh in my mind. Over the years I've had sub-drop as described here, but sometimes if I knew the Mistress well, I would be in such deep subspace at the end I would get emotional and tear up.

I only session with one Mistress now and know her for a long time. I didn't see or hear from her for a couple of weeks, she had a couple of health issues. She needed to move some stuff from her storage space to her home and to go shopping. When I picked her up she told me about was going on, so I thought I was just running errands and no session would happen.

When we got back to her place I put everything away, as instructed and waited a few seconds to be dismissed. Instead she ordered me to take off my shoes, slapped my face and said something like, "I know you need it," and the session began in her unlit living room. Little or no equipment was used. The session turned out to be intensely personal, not roleplay but almost lifestyle, at the end her telling me she should do a couple of kinks next time that are beyond my comfort zone, wanting me to think about it. I left almost high from the experience.

This morning I texted her, saying yes, I'll do it. I'm still a bit euphoric. I never do this but I asked to see her again today, even if I have to drive her somewhere. I'm waiting on the off chance she might agree and text me. If she doesn't by evening I may crash if I don't distract myself.