I typically do. I also feel like I've run a marathon and usually deal with it by passing out/sleeping right after the session and a long hot shower, although that has not been cutting it more recently.

po

Never really called it sub drop......In my mind I've always referred to it as guilt.....Catholic School I guess.
TD

Like other situations and addictions that produce a high, followed by a low, the question becomes, “is the high worth the low later?” Also the only way to get out of a low cycle is to get another high, which will be followed by a low and it becomes an endless addictive cycle.

I’ve found the severe lows aren’t worth the highs. The lows are lower than the highs are high.

Great post, and oh so true.

I've asked myself before if I am an addict to professional BDSM? The honest answer is yes.

Even though people are involved, in the end - its an act to feel good for a short period of time.....and its transactional - money for a feeling.

But, I just can't stop - to be honest, it (sessions and my domme) fuels me for the next time. It gives me a passion and purpose. Without it, I would run out.

Excellent post, LAN. The stuff a movie could we written around.

Celeste

i wonder if anyone else experiences a bit of the opposite -- a sense of elation after a session that is hard to come down from. For me, esp in recent times, it has felt like its hard to go back to vanilla life because im so caught up in thinking through the session i experienced. i dont see this as a bad thing, at all, but i just wonder if others have this experience?

I relate to this and I am not even Catholic.

I feel so guilty after a session, and my fear of being caught is so high that my first impulse is to get away from the playspace as soon as possible.

Only after I feel I am safely away and have "gotten away with it" can I start to process it and enjoy the memory.

I don't know who I am afraid of catching me. It's not like I am doing anything wrong or hurting anyone. I was ashamed of my kinks for so long and that the shame rears its ugly head as soon as the endorphin rush of the session is over.

I think the excitement of a session keeps me from thinking about the shame before.

Maybe it's just sub-drop!

It's a pretty common thing. When I did more in-person pro sessions, I never felt it that much. I'd usually leave the dungeon on a high and almost immediately want to session again. After a day or two that would go away and I'd be back to normal. But I've done some online/phone play that is way more psychological in its direction and with more humiliation. I've definitely experienced some heavier sub drops there, actually. The woman I play with in that area is pretty good about bringing me out of those if I reach out.