Yes it wasn’t a big deal in the big scheme of things but one thing about me is I’m tough on myself when it comes to fails. I think about the losses a lot more than the wins in just about everything even though there’s a lot more wins then losses. Just me.

I remember years ago I was in session with a Domme I’d seen a bunch of times. Things were going great. I don’t remember the exact sequence but she had put a metal clamp on the head of my penis and the pain was excruciating and I just started screaming like never before. She immediately sensed something was wrong and asked what it was. I told her , she took the clamp off and we just continued. No safeword needed.

I’m not sure but I think when I started sessioning I used to be very unresponsive. At some point that changed and it’s been common for Dommes to tell me I’m fun to play with. I’m not sure if that’s because I am responsive or can take a lot or am open to whatever.

Rumor has it that responsive masochists are most Dommes favorite people to play with.

Thank you, Mistress Tissa. I will contact you through your site.

I would have tried to have a little conversation with you about your headspace. If you would allow me to see if I could get you to put those thoughts on hold, for practical reasons (you're there and I spent the time getting everything ready for us) or if you had decided your need to process what you were feeling was greater than the desire to session. If the latter, I would have just rescheduled. No penalty if you were a good client.

This happened probably over 10 years ago so it’s hard to remember the exact specifics. I get nostalgic for her as I write this. I only saw her when she traveled to my city and we always sessioned in a hotel room. We always started the session by catching up with each other for awhile and the next thing I knew she’d be on top of me punching or whatever and away we’d go. I’m guessing after I dropped out and said I just wasn’t into it we did talk although I don’t remember the specifics. She’s really a great Domme and we still stay in touch although my circumstances make my seeing her pretty much impossible.

You sound great. That would have been very nice of you to offer to reschedule due to my quitting the session. In this case it would have been difficult because she was only visiting for a few days at most.

A sadist in Philly might be worth coming out of retirement for.

Step right up, gimp.