Its really awesome. I think my brain is wired to get a pretty big dopamine hit from pain. This goes beyond bdsm. I do a lot of ultra running, really hard workouts etc. i love the day after feeling of pain and soreness from an intense workout. Im guessing this is where the sexual attraction to being beat up comes from.

I am also doing a lot of masochistic sessions. Pretty intense beatings and ball busting normally followed by sex so im guessing this is where the wires in my brain are getting crossed.

But yes i can wake up after having sex and feel like my ass got whipped even if i havent been whipped in a week.

Weird but awesome