Originally Posted By Spark
It’s an strange feeling i want someone to be nice to me while they are beating me. I am often laughing during a session and want them to laugh and smile with me. That doesnt tie into traditional femdom


I'm not sure there is a "traditional FemDom". If you mean the porn version of "FemDom", that depicts a particular fetishized version, which is sometimes not really about actual FemDom at all.

You wanting to laugh and have fun while being beat is not strange. It just means you're not an emotional masochist. You want the sadism to just be physical.