I am definitely one who hides his interest and that I am doing pro sessions. It bothers me and it doesn’t bother me. I’m good at compartmentalising things. But I don’t like having this secret life from my wife. I am somewhat surprised she’s never figured it out or suspected but I think if she suspected something it would be that I was having a vanilla affair which I have ZERO interest in and would never do.

I’ve had these submissive and femdom bdsm desires as far back as I can remember. It took a long time to finally have a real session and live the fantasy out even though I always knew I had to do it. I was sessioning before I got married and quit for awhile after I did. I think I went back to it as a result of unrelated conflicts we were having in the marriage but it’s been so long I really don’t remember the timeline or whys of it all. The desires were probably to strong to resist most likely.