There is no doubt in my mind that my sessions have been of great psychological help to me. It has been along hard slog on more than one occasion and i am a far happier and more balanced person because of numerous, but never enough, sessions with Mistress Ayn.

If a sub visits a Domme for surface level play and some titillation then perhaps a lesser Domme will be fine. However, if a sub is seeking a more substantive relationship with their Domme then the game changes dramatically.

For me getting to the point where things start to get better in session, my post session mental health, and ultimately my life in general was when as a sub i knew i could really truly trust Mistress Ayn and stopped holding anything back.

This happened through baby steps over 5 years because I had a bunch of issues that were deeply hidden including PTSD, claustrophobia, being beaten as a child, the terror of being restrained, and also to recover from what i now know were sessions with Dommes who did not understand healthy session play.

Every sub is different and has different tapes playing that need to be turned off and new ones turned on before the session have true long term value. This transformation will give the sub better mental health and i think sometimes makes the Domme enjoy a session more with the sub because the Domne sees and understands what is happening and gets into a form of Domme space because both parties in the session have built a bond of trust and respect and are on a journey to a special place together. A place only they will ever share with each Other/other.

i used to write Mistress Ayn and give her a long wish list of things for a session, now i know better and show up for what She knows will be the perfect session for me that day. She knows my hard limits and that is the end of the story. i understand why i did that now, i did it to divert the session away from what i was afraid of and what i was hiding inside that i didn't want anyone to see or know about.

The first time She broke though the first wall (of many) i was distraught and did not know how to react or even tell Her later that i was alright. Many Dommes would have dropped me then but We/we were able to work things out and move onwards.

i have never been disappointed since i grew up and gave myself to Her 100%. Trust is hard to develop in this world and in some cases our Dommes know more about what resides deeply hidden in our hearts and souls than our family, our lawyer and our best friends.

i think the one thing that is not mentioned is that the intellect of the Domme is not appreciated to the extent that it should be. When someone is deep inside your head they need to be part psychologist, part probation officer, part Dominatrix and always looking out 100% for the sub's best interests.