My own stress leads directly to sessions. I want to feel those cuffs locking and that gag jerked into my mouth and hear someone softly but decisively say, "Kneel, slut."

At the end of long projects, the need is particularly acute. My daily faux alpha routine gets to be too much, and I badly need to surrender to someone who won't take less than full submission and knows that's what I need too.

But it's not my own stress now. Not yet anyway. This general sorrow includes me but isn't mine to address. If that makes any sense.

Soon enough though I'll need it again though. I feel it building in a similar way. Trying to be in control where I have no business trying. Someone will need to shake me out of that. "Kneel, slut." Yes, Mistress....